I Have My Storms

4"x6', Pen & ink with gold acrylic detail, 2014
“I Have My Storms”, 6″x4″, Pen & ink with gold acrylic detail, 2014

Commissioned by my friend and surf buddy, Nicole. 🙂

I’ve become accustomed to my big, wood panels, that I had a mini-heart attack when I realised just how small an area I was working with. I enjoyed working on this so much though, that I finished this in one sitting.

The title (and to some extent, the piece itself) is inspired by an excerpt of one of Vincent Van Gogh’s letters to his brother, Theo:

“The heart of man is very much like the sea, it has its storms, its tides and its depths; it has its pearls too.”

Lost in that Mortal Struggle


Lost in that Mortal Struggle, 2014, 2.6′ x 4′, Acrylic on wood

I usually wait til an exhibit has opened before posting photos of paintings, but right now I just don’t care. It’s been so long since I did a painting, I’m positively giddy.

The background irks me when I look at it too long because it’s not uniform, but Jooley calls it organic, so that’s what I’m gonna try to go with. Would anyone notice if I did the outlines of any future paintings with sharpies? I’d forgotten what a bitch it is to outline with a brush on wood.

Oh, and new watermark! I thought I’d make something that looked like my current logo just so it’s all cohesive and shit.

Now if you’ll excuse me, I’m off to bed to nurse this scratchy throat and headache.

Group Exhibit + WIP

Today, for the first time in ages (year? years?), I spent hours (5, to be exact) doing nothing but painting. It feels good to be creating something for myself again, although my joints and muscles seem to be punishing me for it.

Also because this piece is part of an upcoming group exhibit and the deadline is this week.

Anyway, yay, work in progress!


I’m part of SinagDreams on Canvas fundraising exhibit. If you’re in the area on May 24, drop by! 😀 Details in the poster below. Click to embiggen:


P52TR WEEK 12 – My Heart Draws A Dream


This was supposed to be Hyde (of L’Arc~en~Ciel), but my hands were all, LOL NOPE YOU GET A RANDOM GIRLY GUY. I really need to work on drawing faces from this angle, because my proportions are a little off.

Anyway, this is the product of me watching L’Arc’s World Tour 2012 concert at Madison Square Garden which always leaves me a little emotional. Save for a couple of songs it’s almost the same setlist as when we watched them in Hongkong.

Still two weeks behind on Project 52!

P52TR WEEK 10 & 11

As of this post, I am now just two weeks behind this project instead of four. There are a couple of reasons I’m this far behind. One is, both of these sketches look like crap to me.Two, up to a few weeks ago, I was working with a very toxic individual and even though we’re not working together anymore, I still feel like the life has been sucked out of me.

batgirl bleh

I have to keep reminding myself that the whole purpose of this weekly exercise is not to be particularly profound, but to be more prolific, which has always been my waterloo. Fingers crossed, I catch up by next month. がんばれオレ!

P52TR WEEK 8 – 斗

I’ve never been good at drawing men, which is something I’ve resolved to work on this year. Slightly effeminate, androgynous men, but men nonetheless. Baby steps.


I don’t know why I bother with muses though, sketches end up looking alike, regardless of who they were based on.

If you’re getting sick of faces in this angle or profiles, I apologise. I’ve developed a thing for noses, and these are the best angles, I find, that lets me draw them best.


“You know me, Carson. I’m never down for long.”

I am just so relieved this year’s Downton Abbey Christmas Special didn’t leave me with a heart attack. I don’t think I could live through another season ender like Matthew’s death.

This sketch was a bitch to get through because my hands wouldn’t stop shaking for some reason. I blame my anemia.

I am a week behind, I know. I was at the beach last weekend so I didn’t get to do anything. Hopefully I’ll be able to finish and upload the sketch for week 7 before Sunday.

Oh, and yay for the first sketch of the year! Let’s do this, 2014!


Tell Me What You Wanna Be

Why are men so fucking hard to draw? I didn’t even ink this because I was so afraid I’d fuck it up and turn it into a full-blown girl.

At least this looks like a man? Maybe? Kinda? Compared to my previous attempts at drawing men, it’s pretty masculine.

If you recognise my muse, (and if you do, you deserve an award, because this looks nothing like him), then please know I will deny it to my grave. Hahahaha!

I just realised his shoulders look weird. OH GOD HOW DO YOU MALE ANATOMY